Reality

REALITY !!!!!!!

I was lost in a fantasy..when I fell for u....
I should have known u were too good to be true.
But, I ignored all my instincts and let u get close.
now here I sit hurting and feeling alone..
You made me feel special.. with all that u said..
we shared quite a closeness my hunger was fed......
you made me believe there was a man that would care.
now here I sit lonely and u won't b there..
I know u don't love me cause time after time..
u told me u want a differant life..
you don't wanna live here u say u want out..
when it comes to me your heads full of doubt...
Yet you wanna date, but I don't know why.
When u act like I have messed up ur life..
You look at me emptily no emotions i feel.
I don't think my heart is strong enough to heal....
from the put downs the hurt the feelings of pain...
I'm dieing I know it my lifes not the same....
I look at myself each day and I hurt...
wondering when I'll be clean of the dirt..
My outlook is dim and I feel rejected inside...
alone I am searching for whats left of my pride.
I feel like a door mat u step and u slide...
you expect that I'll sit back and take it in srtide..
I know that I should let u pack up and go...
but the love in my heart keeps telling me no....
I would give anything to just feel some love....
to know that the end has not yet come...
but, reality is here and reality is now...
you're walking away and leaving my down....
by: jesilyn